This past week, my fitness life turned on a dime. I’ve stopped “practicing” yoga. I’ve had a bit of time to process this and am going to explain.
I read on a few sites (listed below) that yoga is based on worship to Hindu gods. Now, I’ve read that before and never had any sort of “check” or discomfort. I knew my heart I was doing yoga to work on flexibility – not worship a sun god, etc. Yet, this past Tuesday, as I was reading, I felt very uncomfortable with it so I took a step back.
As far back as I can remember, I have struggled with body issues, etc. And I have always been drawn to the beauty of fitness and my life has revolves around it in the past more than I’d like to admit.
This past spring, I began praying that God would help me with my relationship with food and fitness. And, since then, each week has kind of been a new thing. First, it was letting go of running , then counting macros, and just letting go of “me”. I sort of found myself doing yoga because it was something that allowed me to be active but not running or doing excessive workouts. As I got more into it though, my “obsessive” personality kind of overtook and I became more and more into yoga. I was looking at studios around here and just wrapped up in it. Ashtanga Yoga is what I was drawing towards, which is a hardcore version of yoga and also quite religious in how it’s practiced traditionally.
This past Tuesday evening, I read from these sites
- Plus a few others
Now, I’m not saying that anyone who practices yoga is anti-Christian. But I think that my own approach was leading me to put another fitness thing ahead of God. The paragraph that stuck with me as I read was:
Because I have a personality tendency to be “all in”, I realized I was diving into the wrong thing. Yoga is not for me.
Yes, I still plan to workout daily to take care of my body, but I do not want to let a fitness activity consume me again.
I think the check I had on Tuesday is the same one I’ve ignored in the past when I dove into running and then bodybuilding– while I can’t undo those times in my life and I realize they are parts of my story, I do regret how much time & money I invested in those because they don’t end up rewarding what they promise in the beginning (ie happiness, life, peace, etc). My interest in yoga was leading down a similar path.
I hope this makes sense and doesn’t not appear judgmental to anyone who runs, does yoga, or does bodybuilding because it’s not my intention.
As a Christian who knows one of her main stumbling blocks (aka things that draw her away from God and are so hard to admit that she’s referring to herself in third person here), I think letting go of yoga at this time is a step towards God. Instead of being lured by the beauty and promise that yoga will equal peace, happiness, and worth, I’m content with not being a “yogi” & taking that money/time to put into savings or something with an eternal purpose.
So, as far as fitness, I have gone back to alternating my lifting days (using the maps program) with core/recovery/stretching days. And yes, some of the stretches may very well be yoga “poses”. These workouts take 50-60min a day and are something that will help my body stay fit and healthy so I can work and live in Christ in whatever way that leads.
Hope everyone has a blessed weekend!